2040

The air smells like smoke and so do my clothes. I wonder if I am old yet, or if I still feel so small. The hills are flattened. The hills are so flat. The hills are no longer hills. Were they ever? This could be the apocalypse, with aliens and reckonings and lasers. This could be Wednesday. Tomorrow will be Thursday. The next day could be anything. It’s too far away to tell.

"Nothing is free. If something is free, then you are the product and not the consumer."
Hello is this working
why why why why why https://web.archive.org/web/20200827193439/https://imaginechildhood.com/

By now I think I would like a baby. I am fascinated by making, and what else is more impressive than a human hand? I am brash and I am loud and I am frustrated when people are not me. I don’t think my baby would enough be like me to understand. If a baby came from me and looked like me but was not me what would it be? better or worse or different? By now I want something, anything, to care for. I want my life to be defined by something without it overpowering me. I don’t really want a baby. I just want to know that I am capable of nurturing something that needs me. why

“The thing about being very young, as you are, is the permeability / Of one person to another.”

Crawl in movie (working title) looks like a smallish blanket fort that can fit one to two people with a small projector set up to project a collage of videos and sounds. I will be using PVC pipe or some other base as a skeleton (perhaps wood), a projector, and loosely quilted or draped fabric that will be hand-dyed by me. The subject matter deals with the memory of childhood, and whether or not it’s something that you share, relive alone, or ignore completely. The subject matter relates to the materials because blanket forts are definitely symbolistic of childhood, and usually, special occasions or difficult moments that require a distraction for children. This piece is relevant to me because I think me and many of my peers are currently dealing with the transition of childhood to adulthood while in a country of deep unrest; for some of us, childhood is a symbol of joy and excitement, for others, childhood is a time of trauma and unhappiness. The sources or points of reference are

https://www.jstor.org/stable/24556792 https://search-proquest-com.proxy.artic.edu/nytimes/docview/2215925540/9B244CB7DC0A4C64PQ/3?accountid=26320 https://portfolio.meca.edu/view-project/1848/ http://wearearchitects.net/blog/work/building-one-blanket-fort-city/ https://www.oes.design/blanketfort http://www.julieschenkelberg.com/

I think my subject matter falls in line with my sources, but my overall website was pretty vague and loose so I think it’s super up to interpretation. I am inspired so much by the idea of space, and what it means to put your body within a space, so I think that is definitely fueling my concept.

october 29- submit proposal

november 5- collect materials and begin working

november 12- finish documentation

november 19- final critique and slideshow